another 48 hours...

"Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say rejoice! Let your gentle spirit be known to all men. The Lord is near. Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." - Philippians 4:4-7

This morning, during my 5am feeding, the nurse let me know that Adi passed her car seat test at night! However, she followed that up with letting me know that Adi had another breathing 'spell' - where she stopped breathing for about 15 seconds while she was sleeping. The nurse said she came over in time to see the end of it - and Adi was a little dusky in color, but was able to get herself out of it - which is great!  Unfortunately, this means that she has to be here at least another 48 hours to see if another spell happens.  The Pediatrician here spoke with me this morning, letting me know the plan - but it's still just one day at a time, since they don't know exactly what's causing it or whether it's a flukey thing or a bigger issue.  At this point, we're praying that she makes it through the next 48 hours without anymore spells and can come home - but also understanding that if she's not ready, we want her to be here where she can be monitored and get the needed medical attention. 
Instead of sulking thinking about not being able to bring my little girl home for another couple of days, I am trying to focus on this passage from Philippians and rejoice.  I know it may seem like there's not much to rejoice about, but when I think about it, I am SO thankful for:

• Adilyn Rose joining us in this world as OUR daughter
• her health - overall - (she's passed all of the other major tests - and they don't anticipate any long term issues as a result of coming early)
• an amazing husband who loves and supports us through this
• being able to stay at the Hospital so I can nourish her and spend time with her throughout the day/night
• her little smiles, smirks, grunts and all of her already many expressions
• the way she smells - like a 'new baby'
• the love and encouragement of our friends and family
• being able to have time off of work to be here with her
• my health - being able to be up and at 'em to be here for our little girl
• rest - the few hours I can steal away in between feedings
• love - this incredible feeling I already have for our 6 day old daughter. it's really hard to express JUST how much I love her!

I will try to keep updating - just pray for patience, and trusting that the Lord loves us and has a bigger, better master plan than I could dream up!