change. {new} management

Well for those who know, this has been a not so long time coming - but I have an announcement.
As of February 7, 2014 I will officially be under new management...they happen to be younger, less qualified, and much more demanding than anyone I've been employed by in the past. It's a HUGE change for our family and a significant change in my career trajectory to date...but I couldn't be more thrilled and nervous all at once. If you haven't guessed by now, after much thought and prayer and consideration, we have made the decision to say goodbye to my job of almost eight years in corporate America.  For the first time ever, my new title will be full-time, stay-at-home mom.  That's right, not full time mom/full time worker outside of the home. Now, stay.at.home.mom... [gulp]
So that being said, this was not a choice we made flippantly or even completely recently.  Well, obviously the decision was communicated recently - to my Employer, friends, and now you all...but this has been one of those daily life morphing journeys since we learned we were expecting our first child 3+ years ago.
That being said, I will be the first to admit I am torn between feeling VERY afraid with the decision - mostly because it's unknown and I am a planner...this is about the opposite for me.  Thankfully that fear is almost silenced by the joy and peace I feel having made the decision to leave my corporate job and focus on our family.
I can now see that The Lord has been working my heart to come to this place. I can clearly hear myself even nine years ago letting you in on my master plan - move to some faraway land, get the dream job and succeed my way through life.  I was bound and determined to continue my record of 'self-produced greatness' to prove my worth.
While I can't say that I don't still wrestle with pride, I can say that The Lord has used each moment since to make this choice clear for us now.
I'm definitely not naive enough to think all of my other stresses and stressors will disappear now that I can wear sweatpants everyday...(let's be honest, I have two little girls, so there's always an element of drama).  I'm not going into this thinking it will be the as me as the life of motherhood I've experienced so far either.  I'm fully aware that I will not receive any type of bonus for my performance, much less a thank you from these two each day for every move I make.  To be clear, I only half joke about these two becoming my new managers - only to set realistic expectations for myself as well.  I know my time home will not be just mine and am attempting to allow myself some time to figure out how the three of us work together, full time.

That's the update for now. I am still working through the reality of it all as I count down my final days at work.

Here's to change, adjusting, learning, adapting, and taking each moment as it comes.