celebrating...healing

I realize I'm slacking on my posts lately! This past weekend was eventful...
The plan was to spend some quality time as a family and celebrate my 27th birthday.  Though I can't say I feel older simply because of the number, I did feel older when I stopped to recognize my first birthday with a daughter.  I am SO thankful for her - and even though she was born in January, she's the best birthday gift yet.
Dan had rounded up some of our college friends to celebrate my birthday on Friday night.  This was significant because it was the first time we left Adilyn overnight!  She stayed with G+G Peltier while Dan and I went for dinner and drinks with friends at the Tavern on France.  It was a great night and I didn't even worry about Adi (too much) while we were out.  It allowed us a chance to come home and relax together without interruptions and to sleep in...at least that was the plan.  Like I said - this weekend was eventful.  Dan has been under the weather for close to a couple of months now, between a cough, cold, bronchitis and sinus infection.  Unfortunately, I wasn't able to take advantage of uninterupted sleep either, since my body woke me up at about 5am - only to realize that Adi wasn't there. 
Saturday morning, when I finally got out of bed, the house was empty.  Dan returned with Cade to tell me that he went to the Dr. who said he had some kind of bacterial infection.  We were supposed to head to my Mom's for lunch, but it was pretty clear Dan needed to be in bed.  So, I left and he attempted to rest. 
When I got to my Mom's - she gave me the report...lots of tears.  Apparently, once Dan and I left their house, Adi started to realize that we weren't there and cried - a LOT.  My Mom said she cried for a couple of hours on and off - in between G+G distractions.  Eventually, she calmed down, ate and then slept for 9 hours!  It was SO fun to see her big smile when I got there and greeted her good morning.  :) Made the night away so much more valuable to me.
My sister met up with us for lunch and we went back for cake.  It was a nice, relaxing morning/early afternoon spent with family celebrating.  I'm not huge on birthdays, so it wasn't a big deal that Dan couldn't come, though I was disappointed to not be spending time with him too.  On my way out, I got a phone call from him saying that he was feeling much worse and had been throwing up...So I told him to call the Dr. to see if there was any concern/anything they could do - since they had given him a couple of antibiotics. 
The Dr. told him that given everything he'd told him, he was worried it may be meningitis.  So I got another call on my drive home saying we had to get to the ER right away. I rushed home as quickly as I could and Dan jumped in the car.  We drove to the emergency room and ran in.  The ER Dr. reassured us that she did not think it was meningitis given his other symptoms - so they just started running blood tests and did an x-ray.  She was confident that if they pumped him with enough fluids, he would start to feel better/be on his way to recovery.  4 hours and 4 liters of fluid later, Dan was finally feeling a little better. Though the other antibiotics they gave him through his IV were making him very drowsy.  We were finally on our way home...
Not exactly the birthday I had planned, but we're so thankful that Dan is ok.  We were both very anxious and scared when we heard the word meningitis and are so glad that was not the case! 
Dan spent Sunday and yesterday resting and is feeling a little better, but still not 100%.  We're hoping that this round of antibiotics does the trick! At least I am not feeling sick anymore and Adi is on the mend from her cold.  No fun! We are ready for warmer, cold free weather!

So many thoughts rushed through my head when Dan told me the Dr. thought it was meningitis.  Unfortunately, we know of a couple of different people that recently were struck with the disease, so it was especially scary to us. 
Never in my life have I felt so aware of the finiteness of our lives.  I understand that we are only on this earth for a short period of time, but I guess when you just give birth to your first little child, you feel like your whole life is before you.  Recently, we've been touched by and gone through a series of events that have chipped away at our hearts...making us feel angry, sad, frustrated and sometimes hopeless.  BUT - we have also been reminded that we DO have hope - in the truths of the Gospel of Grace.  Though it's still not easy, we are reminded that we are not deserving of any of the blessings we receive daily.  We are reminded that we only receive grace daily because of the work that Jesus Christ did on the cross for us.  We are reminded that we are not in control and that our plans are not always God's plans. 
We are also reminded that our God is a loving Father - and it's ok for us to be angry and wrestle with Him.  Never in my life have I felt so aware of my weakness as now.  I am so thankful for the sanctifying process that the Lord allows us to experience. 

OK - I know that was a lot of words.  Now for some pictures - the real reason you all visit :)

Dan called me into our room to show me how Adi 'decided' to take a nap in our bed. :)

CUTE booties we got - had to get a pic with them on before she outgrows them

Baby 'UGGs' - still a little big for her, but it's almost too warm to use 'em now..and they're too cute!

Just a close up of our growing girl

Adi is 3 months old today!! Time flies!

thought this was funny - I think she was getting sick of the many shots I took...

Adilyn is 3 months old today.  She is growing so fast and we're loving her personality.  Lately, she's been awake much more during the day and not content to just swing.  We've been busting out the playmat and giving her tours of the house and she loves it all.  She's much more 'active' now that she sleeps so much longer at night.  She slept about 9 hours the last few nights and was sleeping at least 7 the nights before that.  We're hoping this is the new sleep pattern, not just a fluke - either way, I am loving catching up on some much needed sleep! 

This is also the last full week I have with Adi before I go back to work (April 21).  SO if I am bad at posting this week, that's why - trying to spend as much time with the peanut as I can. Please start praying for my return to work - knowing that this is for a season and that the Lord will give me the strength I need to do it.